Day 58

Things I know about myself...
It's very difficult to accept compliments.  I think there must be strings attached.
(I had 2 former students tell me I looked good today.)
I do not make good decisions when I'm tired.
(I was almost falling asleep on the way to school so I stopped at the Ralphs in Brea and bought three think thin bars.)
I can't seem to handle taking a day off from the gym.  Things always fall apart.
(For some reason I don't think I deserve a day to relax and do whatever.  I feel like I should always be working on something.)
The sooner in the day I make a "bad" food decision the worse it is.
(First bad decision was at 6:40am today and the last one was at 9:30pm.)
I want to be good at my job.
(We've been talking about area for a month and a bunch of kids still can't find the area of a triangle or a circle...you've got to be kidding me.)
I don't handle sad things very well.
(I found out one of my seniors has a dad that isn't expected to live past July.  I had this students' older brother in class about 5 years ago as well.  Major suckage.  I wanted to cry.)

So that is all to say that today was not a good eating day at all.  I know there has to be a better way to "cope" but I just don't know what it is right now.  Thank goodness I get to go to the gym tomorrow.