Day 41

Today was a travel to Tucson and back day with a bball game thrown into the middle.  Great day!  I think flying gives me a headache though, that or just airports in general.  I found a book on amazon, and then bought it at barnes and noble, called "getting rid of ed" or something like that.  In the first few pages the author is explaining how she "broke up" with Ed, her eating disorder.  There is dialogue in the book between her and Ed.  I decided to write the conversations I have with Ed down, at least some of them.  The first 2 happened 20 minutes apart at LAX this morning.  Then I was ok until I was back in town at the whole foods market in El Segundo.  Ed wanted me to buy food that I knew I didn't want as I had just eaten dinner.  I knew that if I bought the food that I was going to eat it all right then as I drove home.  I escaped, thank goodness.  About 30 minutes ago Ed wanted me to eat to stay awake and "be productive" when all I really want to do is go to sleep.  So I'm going to sleep.  Ed did not win today, but he tried, at least 4 times, probably more like 6 or 7.  Needless to say I took today off from the gym.