I've been in a major funk since September 2010. The funk has ebbed and flowed. Things seem better and then they're bad again. I'm getting better at admitting when things are bad. When will things be consistently good?

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Day 6 of the dress diet

I had 1755 calories today I would guess.  I rowed 5000m at the gym.  I am only 18000m away from 1 million.  I might just say screw it and do all of that tomorrow.  This was not a good day.  I feel like I haven't taught very well this week.  I met with a parent, kid, and counselor today which was kind of a mess.  I hung out with a friend's 15 month old daughter and that was the highlight of the day but by the end of the night even that made me sad as I realized I will hardly get to see my brother's kids assuming he and Darell have some.  The gym kind of sucks right now and then my mom called.  She wants me to tell her if she included a letter with the hats that she mailed.  She can't remember if she did and she couldn't remember when she had mailed the box.  I actually started to cry with her still on the line but I'm pretty good at hiding that so yeah...today sucked.  I really wanted to eat through the wall at 8:30pm or so.  I was crying in my car while driving home from rowing because I realized I wanted to nosedive into eating oblivion.  I was deciding not to and even making that good decision was making me cry.  Ugh.  So glad tomorrow is Friday.

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Days 4 and 5 of the dress diet

I am SO tired again today.  I have been rowing a lot.  Maybe that has something to do with it.  I dunno. I just know that I need sleep now.  I ate well yesterday and today.  I also rowed 10,000m each day.  Maybe that is why I am tired now.  I don't think makes a whole lot of sense.  Not good.

Monday, November 26, 2012

Day 3 of the dress diet

Well I mentioned the bridesmaid dress diet to some kids before school and then one of those kids, who I've known for 15 or so months, writes, "The bridesmaid's diet will probolly (sic) last a week."  I'm glad I saw that after the kid had left the room.  Too funny.  I had 1705 calories today or at least that is my estimate.  It is hard for me to estimate food like a steak salad from espn zone.  Anyways, I did venture to starbucks twice but those calories "only" add up to 195.  I did not exercise at all today and my hamstrings are thanking me.  I'm back to running, rowing, or both tomorrow.  Oh joy!

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Day 2 of the dress diet

I rowed 10000m again and I walked/jogged 4 miles.  I ate more food today because I went out to Santa Clarita and had lunch with my college roommate and her two kids.  It was fun.  We had japanese food and it was tasty.  I haven't had tempera in SO long.  I am now tired.  I have to remember to get up tomorrow and go to school.  Tomorrow I may row at night.  I need to make some photocopies in the morning for geometry.  I'm yawning.  I think sleep would be smart at this point.  Let's be smart!

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Day 1 of the dress diet

I jogged 4 miles.  I rowed 10000m.  I ate about 1445 calories.  I did not get enough sleep last night.  I am tired now.  I relaxed today though.  I did some grocery shopping and I know how I'm going to "attack" these next few weeks.  Things should be good.

Day 28

I made it back to my condo.  I was going to leave tomorrow morning but that didn't happen.  43 hours was it.  Mom gave me about 600 pencils.  My trunk is filled with school supplies.  We had good moments but it's so hard to "keep it together".  So tonight when I got back I mixed up 12 pumpkin bread "muffins" and ate all of them...well 9 muffins and 3 muffins worth of batter.  I don't feel sick which is amazing.  I need to rest these next 2 days so I can make it to winter break in one piece.

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Day 27

It was a good day.  I got to hang out with mom and dad together and separately.  It was a nice time.  We had a good dinner.  No mashed potatoes, no rolls, no pie.  It was fine.  We used the nice wedding china.  My big splurge was the bottle of Martinelli's dad had for me...520 calories.  Oh well.  It was tasty.