Day 246

I have had A LOT of starbucks today.  I am going on a three month coffee boycott.  I spend way too much money at starbucks.  I know that I am mad at God.  I know that I feel like the writer of Ecclesiastes.  I am chasing things, trying to find meaning in life, when really we can only find our purpose for living in God and his plan for us.  I know this but I don't do anything with it.  I don't know if I don't trust it or I don't believe it or it's too much work or what.  I just know that stuff sucks sometimes.  Am I mad at God or mad at myself?  I think too much.