Day 164

I ate well today.  I rowed a ton, 14K total.  I walked to a Fresh N' Easy to stock up on some Think Thin Bars, LaraBars, and Kind Bars for Yosemite.  I know I've had bad  luck with bars in the past but this is going to be my breakfast, lunch, and snacks.  It should be alright.  I'll be in an internet free zone for awhile.  Updates later!

Day 163

I rowed 6 sets of 1000m at 24 hour in the morning.  Then I kinda lazed around but I did go out and wander around the Citadel Outlets.  I read some of a book.  I wrote in a new journal I started called "Unsent Letters".  It has been suggested for a number of weeks by the two group therapists that people write a letter when they get upset with a person, but then don't send it.  So I did that yesterday.  And I'm going to use it to write letters to my deceased grandparents as well.  I know that makes me sound nuts but having the conversations with them in my head isn't much better.  I also went to the gym last night.  I'll be taking about 3 weeks off from working out and that has me moderately stressed.  Not really, but a little.  Then I went out and had dinner with a friend.  I was exhausted by 10pm.  I went a bit crazy around 4pm with about a cup of cashews and macadamia nuts.  Live and learn!

Day 162

I did a lot today.  I kept so busy I didn't have time to think about being depressed.  I wrote thank you notes to kids at school, I did arts and crafts with kids at AFCC, I took a friend from church to see "Brave" in 3D, I hung out with my friend and her baby, I went to group therapy at Kaiser, I watched three episodes of "Community" with a friend, I deadlifted at the gym, and now I am home.  I am tired.  I ate well today.  Yay.

Day 161

I cooked, really steamed the hell out of it, corned beef for the first time.  It was good!  I was surprised.  I rowed 8000m yesterday, but not all at once.  I rowed either 2000m or 1000m and then I rested some.  I don't want to hurt my left knee.  I have 32 more times where I need to row 8000m.  I think that's easier than trying to remember what day is a 5K day and what day is a 10K day.  Now everyday, well 5 days a week is an 8K day.  Yay.

Day 160

Yesterday was ok.  I've been eating well.  I rowed at the gym.  I caught up with a friend at a church down the road.  It was a productive day.  No starbucks again!

Day 159

Well I slept in til about 9am.  I ate food.  I read some of "The Tender Bar".  I played a lot of bejeweled on Facebook.  I ate an entire thing of celery with almond butter.  That was not really a good plan.  I took a nap for about 4 hours because I didn't want to do anything else.  Now I'm up thinking I really want to "go through my clothes" and get rid of everything that I didn't wear last year or that doesn't fit.  I know other people could be wearing stuff that I'm just storing.  I think clothes have mocked me my entire life.  Not sure if mocked is the right word.  Whatever.

Day 158

I slept in until 8am.  Or at least I didn't get up until then.  I went to the gym.  My left knee is still sore from all that rowing yesterday.  I did 4 loads of laundry.  I ate good food.  I did not go to Starbucks.  I went to check out the new "Cars Land" and "Buena Vista Street" with a friend at California Adventure.  I read more of "The Tender Bar".  Now I am very tired.